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Fitness didn't come easy to me.. I actually used to hate it with a passion. Anything that involved putting on my disgusting looking sport shorts at school and sweating like a pig made me SO anxious. I actually used to fake sick notes to my teacher to get me out of doing sports - it was that bad.
During the early years of secondary school I was bullied for the way I looked, I was over weight and I wasn't popular or like the pretty girls at school... my self esteem was rock bottom and I hated myself.
It was when I was 16 I decided something needed to change, I got myself a gym membership and spent 1023737733 hours on the cardio machines along with eating super low calories... the weight started to come off me and I started to feel a bit more confident.
But, I took things way too far.
My obsessive attitude towards fitness at this point is what then lead to my eating disorder... I became very addicted to spending time exercising and had a very unhealthy relationship with food. I had a severe case of body dysmorphia, I remember being at my lowest of weights and looking at myself thinking I was overweight when I was so tiny.
At this point my body and my mind was f*cked, I would restrict and binge on food and I had no control over my own life.
I couldn't go on like this.. I realised things needed to change.
At the age of 19 I ventured into the weights section at my gym, I had always avoided it I thought it was the 'mens section' and I was nervous because I was scared people would judge me. But i thought f*ck it. Luckily I had a bit of guidance from a friend who taught me some exercises and I educated myself by watching Youtube videos.
I loved the way lifting weights made me feel, I felt badass, strong and empowered. I realised that I needed to fuel my body with food in order to get stronger and push my body.
Now its not to say that this was an overnight process.. because believe me it wasn't. It was a lot of trial and error, f*cking up making mistakes, falling off the wagon and getting back on it again. But I never gave up.
My journey has taught me so much about exercise, nutrition and how to balance your lifestyle in a healthy way. I decided in 2016 I wanted to become a personal trainer to help others build up their confidence, be happy in their own skin and make a lifestyle change for the better like I have done.
Together we can create the strongest, fittest and happiest version of you.